Clogged Arteries

I've had it on my mind...

Clogged arteries.

At first, I was thinking about it spiritually...

My spiritual heart getting all gunked up with worry, anxiety, lack of trust, fear, wrong attitudes, self-indulgence, sin in general.

But I couldn't find the words to write about it.

So I thought about another kind of clogged artery....Writer's Block.  Afraid to write from the heart.

I don't want to exploit my husband in this blog. Basically it's my open journal. My safe place to talk from my heart. Hopefully someone will find a word of encouragement...know you are not alone...hang on to hope.

Sometimes my progress is paralyzed...clogged artery...can't get moving forward.

Then I thought back to the cancer journey over a decade ago now. In some ways, I have not moved forward from Tim's illness back then, despite the fact he is fine (as far as cancer is concerned) now. I used to be the Queen of Christmas. I had all my cards ready to mail by December 1. Presents were in the mail on time. I hardly write any cards and never seem to get them out on time. I am always late with gifts.

It's not a pity party. Just reflecting. Wondering...how now to unclog my arteries?
      How to identify what is plugging up the system.
        How to move forward.

One thing serious illness does..it confronts you with the question: How will you make the most of life now?

Life is precious. A gift. A treasure. An adventure. An opportunity.

A process.

Ah, that's it!

One pebble at a time.

Saying no to just one bacon bit more. lol

One day at a time.

I think the pressure on my heart just lifted a bit.

Cleaning...clearing...coping...

And hoping

For the best for all. <3